A Coherent Narrative of A Schizophrenic Episode
Posted: Tue Apr 21, 2009 10:10 am
Hello.
I suffered a schizophrenic episode once. I wrote up my experience as best I could, and people have told me it is extremely well written. The names have been changed to protect the innocent. I provide it here for your education.
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Interestingly, before reading Jayne's book, I had thought of the left-brain right-brain split as the source of these problems. I had never been very artistic or spiritual or emotional until I had these experiences. It is as though my right brain suddenly connected to my left, and all of a sudden I felt things I had never felt before. A few years prior to the incident (around age 30), I looked at the sky and noticed how beautiful it was. That was the first time I was ever struck by the beauty of an inanimate object (women, I noticed earlier). Within a five years, I fell ill.
Oddly enough, I was left handed when I was young because my mother handed me things with her right hand. But she noticed this and changed, so now I eat with my left hand but write with my right hand. When I was in college, I took so-called "smart drugs" such as piracetam and hydergine. The purpose of the former was to enhance left-brain right-brain communication. Perhaps these contributed to my problems.
Please be very kind to schizophrenics. You have no idea what they go through, and how terrible it can be. One person described it as "a constant state of mental rape". Some of them are very intelligent; I was a member of Mensa. But being smart doesn't mean you can get perspective on the illness; it is hard to argue with a voice that knows your innermost thoughts and fears and manipulates you through guilt and shame.
I suffered a schizophrenic episode once. I wrote up my experience as best I could, and people have told me it is extremely well written. The names have been changed to protect the innocent. I provide it here for your education.
[broken link removed]
Interestingly, before reading Jayne's book, I had thought of the left-brain right-brain split as the source of these problems. I had never been very artistic or spiritual or emotional until I had these experiences. It is as though my right brain suddenly connected to my left, and all of a sudden I felt things I had never felt before. A few years prior to the incident (around age 30), I looked at the sky and noticed how beautiful it was. That was the first time I was ever struck by the beauty of an inanimate object (women, I noticed earlier). Within a five years, I fell ill.
Oddly enough, I was left handed when I was young because my mother handed me things with her right hand. But she noticed this and changed, so now I eat with my left hand but write with my right hand. When I was in college, I took so-called "smart drugs" such as piracetam and hydergine. The purpose of the former was to enhance left-brain right-brain communication. Perhaps these contributed to my problems.
Please be very kind to schizophrenics. You have no idea what they go through, and how terrible it can be. One person described it as "a constant state of mental rape". Some of them are very intelligent; I was a member of Mensa. But being smart doesn't mean you can get perspective on the illness; it is hard to argue with a voice that knows your innermost thoughts and fears and manipulates you through guilt and shame.